I am unhappy

yes, i am unhappy.. ever since 1 jan, i had quarrels everyday with bf.. we even fought twice.. Today's morning he was late for school so he wanted to cross the red man light.. i stopped him because it was too dangerous.

end up i get scolded and blame when he missed the train.. the moment i stopped him from crossing, he scolded me.. I stop because i cared, otherwise, i would just ignore and watch him get knocked down by car right?

i merely told him " today is the 9th day of 2008. u wanted to scold me again isit"

he told me yes and he will scold me everyday.. what have i done wrong to deserve this? I longed for happiness in a relationship but think it is too impossible. i am tired of getting scolding everyday. i cant even live happyily for a single moment.

yesterday we quarrelled because he said 430pm meet me and i tot he meant he 430pm off school. so when he called, i was still at home. He said he is going home since i was still at home.

i said i want to go out if not i bathe so fast for what.. and he come and quarrel with me.. when i went to his house to find him, his bloody hell eyes were both fixed on the computer screen playing his game. he doesn't even bother to look at me.

he can spend his time waiting for the boss to spawn. but not waiting for me when i was late.. he even chase me out of his house in front of his mother. snatch away the newspaper i was reading.

am i that lousy girl that no one will like so i deserve all these shits? i see my surrounding friends, envy them of their happiness.. My bf always tell me not to envy them. how to?? when i doesn't have a single blissful moment?

he can even forget to call me to acc me chat when i was waiting at bugis for 1 hour for ervi. just because he was playing game, i have to wait for 7 hours but still no single call. i reached home at 12am but till 12.30am, he still didn't talk to me on MSN.

game is more important than gf?

i am unhappy, sad, angry, disappointed and i see no point of living.. based on the care & concern i have from family & friends.

btw, grats qiuyun for giving birth to her baby son last night. will be visiting her ltr at hospital.