How i wish that i never grow up

Growing up is every child's biggest dream. I tried putting lipsticks at the age of 6. And i broke my mum's one and had a thrashing from her. At the age of 11-12, i always remember me & my cousin wore dresses to make ourselves look matured. Mascara was up with foundation.
When i grow up and enter society, i thought work place is a very family type of place with F.R.I.E.N.D.S.

But turn out that everyone have a past to hide. Sometimes, when things are super obvious, they hide too. But i do not know if he/she is aware that in fact everyone know the truth earlier than me. I also have things to hide. We all have secrets. We all have a past that we dont wish to reveal. But i try to be as truthful as i can. I just speak what is on my mind.

To some people, the words i say might offend them. But i do know people that admire the fact that i try to be truthful.

Why should we be in a world of lies?

Seriously, i never regretted getting a sales job for my offically first career of my life.
I joined in april 08. I thought everyone was friendly. Until i know that another person from another department told tales to someone to make the someone misunderstood me (it is not work-related anyway) but i swore that i hate the another person like mad.

I also know a guy in my company who cheated his girl friend 5times and above and till now the girl still sticks to him. Hopefully the guy know that the girl is sincerely good to her. Treasure her.
Recently, i admit i am not performing as expected in work. (getting 8 sales per day - cable TV and internet)

But fact is not even 1/4 of us hit the target and i am also struggling.
I still cant believe that i am the target of backstabbing as well...
i also know how to spell...