I am unhappy

yes, i am unhappy.. ever since 1 jan, i had quarrels everyday with bf.. we even fought twice.. Today's morning he was late for school so he wanted to cross the red man light.. i stopped him because it was too dangerous.

end up i get scolded and blame when he missed the train.. the moment i stopped him from crossing, he scolded me.. I stop because i cared, otherwise, i would just ignore and watch him get knocked down by car right?

i merely told him " today is the 9th day of 2008. u wanted to scold me again isit"

he told me yes and he will scold me everyday.. what have i done wrong to deserve this? I longed for happiness in a relationship but think it is too impossible. i am tired of getting scolding everyday. i cant even live happyily for a single moment.

yesterday we quarrelled because he said 430pm meet me and i tot he meant he 430pm off school. so when he called, i was still at home. He said he is going home since i was still at home.

i said i want to go out if not i bathe so fast for what.. and he come and quarrel with me.. when i went to his house to find him, his bloody hell eyes were both fixed on the computer screen playing his game. he doesn't even bother to look at me.

he can spend his time waiting for the boss to spawn. but not waiting for me when i was late.. he even chase me out of his house in front of his mother. snatch away the newspaper i was reading.

am i that lousy girl that no one will like so i deserve all these shits? i see my surrounding friends, envy them of their happiness.. My bf always tell me not to envy them. how to?? when i doesn't have a single blissful moment?

he can even forget to call me to acc me chat when i was waiting at bugis for 1 hour for ervi. just because he was playing game, i have to wait for 7 hours but still no single call. i reached home at 12am but till 12.30am, he still didn't talk to me on MSN.

game is more important than gf?

i am unhappy, sad, angry, disappointed and i see no point of living.. based on the care & concern i have from family & friends.

btw, grats qiuyun for giving birth to her baby son last night. will be visiting her ltr at hospital.

stupid. i got tons of photos to upload. jayden's shot, chalet one.. still got video somemore. i got a new hair cut again.. and i rebonded. cos really too curl.. haiz

this is a lousy bad hair month.. i wanna my long hair back!

MC King -- Be happy is the best.

MC King -- Be happy is the best.

Yes, our local comedian king had passed away. I know i am late for this post. but.. i was busy at the chalet..

I duno who is the steven (IP address 202.67.151.224) but thanks for the negative comment on telling me most actress from NUS, NTU.. so what i am from ITE? i am just trying to do what i like. It doesn't matter if i can make it big or not or i remain as a small fry for the rest of my life.

Being happy is the most important. What is the use of you being rich & famous but unhappy?

MC king, a comedian that i watched since i was very young. I always remember that the chubby face & body is his trademark. I wonder if i would remember him if he slim down. He mentioned in his blog that he had no news value = not popular..

But when he passed away, everyone report and blogging about him. what is the use that you doesn't treasure his talent when he is alive? just now as i was rebonding my hair at a salon, i was listening to the radio and heard ppl wept.

I understand the feeling of losing a friend. But can those shitty people stop guessing how did he died? Rumours online claimed that he died because he was dieting with diet pills.. can you all just wait for the report to come out instead of guessing around and using him as your blog entry?

MC King had joined heaven.. Now, have you learn your lesson to treasure the loved ones around you?

Just bathe after reaching home from aloha resort chalet.. i am damn shag..

only slept for 2 hrs =( somemore i slept at the stairsway.. =( seeing my bed now comforts me awhile. wahahaha.. so, i am going for a little nap and wake up at 10pm to memorise the audition script for a channelU show.. i am going for the audition at 4.30pm tml..

means i got NO TIME!! wabiang eh!! i hope that my brain is nice to me. i will drink one chicken essence ltr.. wahahaha!!

off to sleep.. and i present you another photo taken by Jayden.

Ylva & JinLian

i may be going to chalet.. blog in 1 or 2 days come ok! and i just got an sms from wawa production asking me go audition for a drama show on channelU this coming monday .. yippie!

will blog more abt the shots a week ago.. thx jayden for the pic